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Whoa. Another thing in common that's blown me away, except for the intelligence part. Intelligent Qube, to this day, is one of my favorite games. I was never good at it, or any game, but I loved it. It was one of those games I was lucky to get from a friend, same way with ICO. Had I not been given the games; I wouldn't have ever experienced them on my own. I never had good experiences with vitamins or even some herbs. GABA made my chest feel really awful and numb and awful. I'm so sensitive, maaaaan. For a long while now, after finally getting on an anti-depressant (I know) and knowing peace, stability, happiness, creativity, etc. it's continously been wiped from my system from things as simple as Melatonin to the point it can take weeks or months after until I'm readjusted to the anti-depressant. I've been in this vicious cycle. It all started when I took Hydroxizyne which did help for what I needed it for, but eventually it turned on me in a horrible way. It took 9 weeks of feeling like the alternate reality version of myself, feeling like a stranger in my own body, feeling all kinds of shit. It was that I had taken several in the period of a month, then as it always happened, its effects remained for days after, then came the residual side effects but also withdrawal feelings, then even worse, long-lasting effects of being in some limbo while I waited for my anti-depressant to grasp and grip my mind fully. Fucked up thing is, 9 weeks to the day I started to feel better, that night, and what happens that night, my father passes away. First few weeks, thankfully, I was good with my anti-depressant but since then it's been how my life was before. Never stable, always something off/wrong, no ground, no stability, etc. And come to find out, my worst experience has been from taking a higher dose of Gabapentin for nerve pain for Diabetes. I fucking took what my dad had left which is only 100mg more than what I take, for three nights, that fucked me up for two weeks. It's like alcohol withdrawals and you can't fucking sleep and if you do youre not really sleeping, so you never rest. And I'm back there again because i've been feeling the same way for days now and I think it's because I fucking took a double dose. So, yeah. Ain't no different than being some drug addict tweaking out on the streets.

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